Just wanted to say hi and to say thank you to DogmaticKerr
for all the awesome that has been gifted to me. Thank you
Working on setting up some shoots. My current job doesn't give me much time for shooting these days which is rather sad and terrible. Needing a steady income and needing to fulfill my personal goals to gain my personal happiness are at war with each other. I cannot seem to gain a steady enough income through modeling and photo re-touching/manipulation though my goals are to make those things my full time jobs. Yet having the job that provides the steady income is draining me of the time and energy necessary to reach my goals. We only have so much lifetime as humans to reach the successes we wish to reach and even then that is as unpredictable as any part of the mystery of the universe. I live with family because I cannot afford my own place, I have a tiny room that I share with another human being and three cats, I cannot make enough money to 'make it' and the little money I am making immediately goes out the window as I toss it at various debts and bills and basic life necessities. Saving is harder to do for me than I imagined and working sucks.
When my parents told me being an adult is not as wonderful as I imagined as a child they were right. Hardly any of us actually listen to that when we're kids though. It's one of those "you'll understand when you're older" moments.
As Dori says: "Just keep swimming."
Okay, I like to swim. It just gets cold sometimes.